not again!

somewhere in a crack between insanity and despair, i held on. i called out your name. i screamed at the top of my lungs for you to find me. i fought all odds of losing hope, remembering your voice... your promises. i held on to the thought of you finding me and having me back. i pushed my body to the limits just to hold on to that grip. i forced my mind to find "the zone" just to foget about the pain.

somewhere in a crack between insanity and despair, i battled against myself. my sanity told me you would never be there but my heart convinced me that you cared too much for me to throw all the memories away. my abused body told me to let go, but my faithful spirit just couldnt, wouldnt. my ego told me it would be just fine even without you, but it scared the living daylights out of me to accept that youre gone. and i kept telling myself to hold on forever, but something told me to wake up and face reality.

somewhere in a crack between insanity and despair, i found my real self. i removed the feeling that have blinded me from the start. i cleared my thoughts from any of your foolish lies. all i could feel was the stinging pain in my hands. all i could hear were the loud throbbing of blood in my ears and the pounding of my heart screaming for release. and all at that moment, i knew. for the last time i shed a single tear, smiled and finally let go.

somewhere in a crack between insanity and despair, i could still remember. i could remember as if i were there again. but i couldnt i feel the stinging pain in my heart and hands now. nor could i hear the loud throbbing of blood in my ears and the pounding of my heart screaming for release. i just couldnt feel it anymore, not even regret.

somewhere in a crack between insanity and despair, all i could remember was the sweet feeling of finally letting go of you.